spring break day 2

FAILURE.

first of all, there is something completely wrong with me this year. i'm procrastinating, i go through SO MUCH infatuations, and i can't concentrate.

i kinda noticed it started around summertime...oh the drama >.<

so here i am again. even more distracted.

failure! pathetic! possessive!

that's me.

oh goodness gracious. i actually tried to study for euro today. i bought books and everything! it even has my name on one of them! ("REA: Research and Education Association"). so ok i was doing good, highlighting stuff, then i fell asleep AGAIN but not as long as yesterday's. i went online so that i wouldn't feel sleepy anymore (around 1 or 2 o'clock in the afternoon is THE best time for a nap) and that didn't turn out well -__-. even MORE distracted...especially since my new infatuation posted something on my profile.

LIKE ZOMG HE PUT UP SOMETHING! OMFG REA, LOOK, HE ADDED YOU AS A FRIEND!

yea i hate my squeals of excitement. that is usually followed with constant refreshing of the page for the next 5 hours. (which i'm still doing now but went on here to distract myself from that). hopeless -shakes head-

all my friends probably think i'm stupid and hopeless...in that area. which i am. i seriously am. but this has never happened to me before. a gazillion infatuations. usually when i stop liking someone, there's a month or two gap between crushes where i have infatuations. but no, ever since summer i've been like this. 9 months of being fickle and emotional!

can i just please settle down?

maybe i'm tired of school. that's not good, i need to shape up for next year!

i'm not taking a summer school class in walnut this year. i'm sad. i have to look for sat prep classes around here. maybe make new friends with the rich black/white people here in rancho. ugh i hate the people here. they're so mean. ok not mean mean, but i dunno i can just tell they aren't that friendly most of the time.

i can't WAIT for it to be summer. maybe a summer away from him would actually do me some good. i can calm down and also since i won't be seeing him for 3 months or so i would finally get over him :D. because this is ridiculous. but i'd miss all my friends :[. the only reason for school is them nowadays. and some cute guys but wtvr. i'm sorry, everyone has their guilty pleasures :P.

hmm i haven't taken pictures in a while. i think my camera's broken though haha. i keep it in my bag all the time and the flash doesn't work anymore because i've had it off for so long. i hate using flash. tis an ugly feature in cameras...most of the time.

i remember i used to edit pictures cuz i was bored. i found such happiness in it. i remember when i was sad, i would edit some pictures to get my mind off it. i only have picasa though haha, but picasa is still a pretty good photo editor.

WHICH REMINDS ME of flickr! omg i remember i found it and i really liked this one feature called cross process or something. i liked it alot.

DO I HEAR RAINDROPS? falling on the rooftop. oooh baby tell me why'd you have to go. teehee.

no seriously. drastic weather change man. today was nice and sunny.

i actually didn't play the piano today cuz i didn't want anything to distract me from euro. what a waste. i wanna play again! but i can't. must hold out.

randomness.
congratulations, you finished! your prize: a preview of how rea's mind works. i seriously think like this.