it's one of those nights

siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh.

some things i'd like to say to people:
1. you drive me crazy. stop being so...cute. please. it would make it easier for me to move on. i hate it when you treat me like crap one day then you're all happy go lucky the next. and when you're all happy go lucky with me, i get all crazy. when you're all nice and fun to talk to, i go crazy afterwards (in my head of course). i hate it especially when i see you with her. a reminder that i yet again fail.
2. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! well it's tomorrow. but still. i might not be able to say it to you. so if you somehow read this (which i doubt you will because you probably don't even know of this and if you did you might not really read it), there you go. i still care, but i don't care. lol if that made sense. i don't care if we're friends or wtvr, i'm fine with the way things are right now. but i just want you to know that you're unforgettable and irreplaceable. just to make it clear though, i have no feelings of that sort. just trying to make amends.
3. that was really embarassing -_-x.
4. i'm sorta mad at you, but it's not your fault. your friends just happened to be in the same class. why am i so lonely? it's cuz you went with your closer friends. yea. but it's ok, i don't mind the hour and a half of silence.
5. i must be annoying to you. you're so awesome for not saying anything. i know i seem to be doing hw everytime instead of working, but i promise to not do it as often. yes. lol. btw, i really like your hair that way. you look really nice.
6. i'm sad i don't get to talk to you as much. out of the 8 of us, you're the one i've kinda drifted apart from this year. i wanna hang out, but it's probably not possible anymore -_-x.
7. when will it stop?