i was hoping you didn't do that to me

but you did. you made me even MORE scared of disappointment. more scared of rejection. more scared of getting hurt. it's not your fault. and you weren't the first one to make me feel like this.

i want to like this person. i really do. but i just know that with every little thing, i can get upset over it very easily. any little rejection scares me and i get hurt really easily. i also know that every LITTLE thing that i see as a sign of "interest" i go crazy over, even though i know he doesn't do that with just me. i admit, seeing him and talking to him makes me happier, but that's just a stupid feeling that i feel. it's happened before.

i guess in a way, i don't want to commit. commit as in both a relationship and a crush because that just takes away alot of time for me and it makes me even more stressed (though it does make me happy). that's why i haven't been able to really like someone else for a long time. i'm just dang scared of being hurt and rejected because that's happened all too much in my life.