disappointed

i am constantly being disappointed by guys. why? i don't know.

my only friend left in confirmation happens to have friends now in the class. great. so he sits with them and i'm left alone. he was like my only hope of actually surviving nicely in class. we were pretty good friends at the end of the year last year. well...in my definition of a friendship with a guy.

i admit that when i saw him go over and sit with his friends, my heart sank. i thought, "great...i'm a loner in this class again -_-x"

ugh i freakin hate the immaturity of those kids there. it's so stupid. i don't think our year is THAT immature and rude and disrespectful. they're so stupid ugh. it frustrates me. and i have to sit in there for one and a half hours? ugh my goodness. i would love the class more if there were different people in it. i would love to be more faithful to my religion, but GOODNESS THESE PEOPLE ARE EFFIN ANNOYING.

sigh. tonight is just one of those nights where you don't want to do anything. where sadness over comes you.

other than those things, something came up with my friend. i'm helping him deal with something. sigh.

i want to read the bible more. it's like an english novel...full of lessons yet to be learned, parables needed to be reminded of.