days go by and i'm a little bit stronger

honestly, my brain somehow knows me more than i know myself. wait that doesn't make sense. oh well.

last night i got a little depressed after watching ghost of girlfriends past. uhh i DON'T know why, but i cried at some parts of the movie. the movie is not a tearjerker, just to tell you lol. yea so after watching it i got depressed for some reason. maybe all i want is someone to love me like that.

but God is funny in ways. i was tempted to look at old pictures of me and him but my photobucket account wouldn't let me get in. so i gave up and went to sleep. this morning (and even til now) the song "something special" by colbie caillat played in my head. the lyrics "days go by and i'm a little bit stronger" keeps ringing in my head. thanks God, that's all i needed :].

random factoid: in sixth grade i used to be all like "why does he like her, she has pimples on her face :[? i have clear skin!" then seventh grade i started getting pimples, but not too much. then eighth grade started and i was never the same :[[. how do i like them apples? i do not like them, sam i am. i do not like green eggs and ham. lol x]

sometimes i get annoyed at people who keep obsessing over the saaaaaaame problem every time. we go back to square one and i'm just running out of advice and patience for them. but that's only sometimes. sometimes i want to say "omfgggg get over it already! don't you get it, you don't need him! we keep going around in circles and you seeeeeem like you're not even trying!" but that's only sometimes.

you wanna know how i cut him off from my life (mentally)? well in order to achieve that, i figured i should do some things literally. i put that bear he gave me away where i can't see it. i don't listen to songs/artists that reminds me of him. i listen to HAPPY songs or songs that make me feel good about myself. i mean, yes i still think about him but not in that way anymore.

why am i talking about this? oh yea, the circling problem. AHHH THERE'S ANTS IN MY ROOM! SHOO SHOO! grrness.